– Now is the time when I left this life. Unfairly short life. But life is full of love and warmth. I want to thank everyone for the support you have given me and my family during this time. It made all the darkness feel brighter.
The text was written by Ellen Fagrell-Holmsten before she took her last breath. On Monday of this week it was posted on Instagram.
The 22-year-old from Nossebro, Sweden has lived indefinitely. Elaine had cancerous tumors in her ovaries and lymph nodes – and in her skeleton.
Dagbladet was in touch with Ellen in November. She gave permission to Quote videos and post private photos.
Like a fist
In August 2021, Elaine receives an alarming letter, after experiencing severe abdominal pain, vomiting and constipation. Colon Cancer.
After several operations, followed by cell therapy, she was told the cancer was gone.
They operated on a tumor the size of a fist. They removed a large portion of the large intestine and a piece of the small intestine, as well as the lymph nodes in the groin, Elaine explains in The video was posted to TikTok.
She continued her studies and moved away from home to live with her boyfriend and kitten Snus in Lindesberg in Örebro.
She was declared healthy and could lead a life like “all” her other peers.
Until last summer.
Hands and feet swelled. Stomach pain returned.
Welcome to one of the worst days of my life. As you may have understood, the cancer has likely returned, the 22-year-old said in a video posted Oct. 14.
– I wonder how I will die
Days later, the suspicions were confirmed. Cancerous tumors of the ovaries, lymph nodes, and skeleton.
Doctors said she had terminal cancer.
– I was told that if I choose chemotherapy, I can live for about two and a half years. If I don’t take chemo, Elaine said, I’ll have six months left.
into swedish Express She told the 22-year-old she couldn’t take it. The family broke up at the doctor’s office. She herself was completely empty inside.
– I wonder how I will die. I don’t know if it’s worth going through chemotherapy for the rest of my life, or just letting it take its course. It’s not a decision for the 22-year-old to make.
Eileen had doubts. The previous round of chemo was very sick.
– I don’t know if I want to live the last part of my life with the side effects. I will lose my hair. I have a bad immune system, which means I may not be able to meet the people I want to meet. But I will do radiation therapy on the spine, which will be, above all, a pain reliever, she said in a video.
I got my last wish come true
Elaine didn’t know how long she was gone. The only thing she was certain of was that she would marry Albin before she left Earth.
His girlfriend popped the big question on November 4 of last year, when life was at its darkest.
Elaine’s last wish in life was to be able to forget death for one day. Celebrate love with friends and family. She dreamed of being able to call her partner to her husband.
On December 3 they became husband and wife.
– The greatest love of my life. He and I, he and I, for the rest of my life and beyond, fell in love Instagram seven weeks ago.
At the same time, she planned her own funeral.
In her latest post, Ellen quotes writer Tove Jansson:
“Oh, I love it, when one eats everything, drinks everything, talks about everything and dances his legs tired, go home in the quiet hour before sunrise to sleep!”
She concludes by saying:
– See you in Nangijala.
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